The Question...
I have a Question. Why do people care soo much about sexuality?? things like being a Lesbian or Gay. Or Bisexual or wadeva.. why do people bother soo much?? Yes of i noe its against some of our religion and yes thts a good enuff ans to it. But socially?? why is it such an issue... if u were to be dating with the same person of the same sex.. why do people look at it like they're a walking Human Violation?? If people of different sexes can go on Dates and be in a relationship and its completely OKAY and to them its romantic bcos its love.. why cant people of the same sex can have tht same kind of treatment? Homosexuals are people of the same sex making Love. Love! so why is it an issue?? love is something Exquisite and special..But why is it only presentable for guy and girl? not girl-girl or guy-guy?? its still love rite?.. but Im still wondering... maybe i should read a book on it..im super Curious!! all of a sudden.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
Our Dance For tht one evening! hahahha!!
A night to remember...
Prom wass awesome!! I feel tht the performance was one of the highlights of the evening!hahhaha! This bunch of people were amazing... even if they have no experience wad soo eva.. they still did their best! and the best part.. new friendships were build! hhahaha!! and im glad to be part of this "high School Dancers" after all those drills of " 5,6,7,8...." the experience was FUN! :))
I miss yesterday and i would love it if i could rewind yesterday and slow it down.. it ended super CEPAT.. like a blink of an eye! hahahha! as if the night was for only 2 hours.
thinking back.. and remembering everything.. is wad im doing now.. Looking forward to sleepover with J&D.. and also a treat on wed with the High school Dancers.. :))
Muss**
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Today and Randomness...
ouhh... have i meantioned today was veryyy suppperrr Random?? i mean.. when u planned to go with the plan u planned and suddenly everything side-tracked and u when u have the best people inur life with u.. for sure nothing will turn to something! :)
well.. the J&D were suppose to meet up and visit me at NBS and watch the sequence of something.. but we ended early soo yea things went downhill at tht moment.. den soon after.. we decided to head to Yishun Stadium. At first i tot tht its gonna be like dull and evertthing (i noe yall feel tht way too huh?) but when u have the Finest-comedy-sitcom-video makers u have nth to worry about.. i meann HELL YEAH!! it was damm fun.. from making nonsensical videos to Cheer leading to Bird-Duck-Quack-Meow.. hahha it was fun.. definitely a THING to remember.. ouh and also * remember the other day* moments.. hahah! I love J&D.. They're my Laughing GAs!!
Muss** 9.22pm
ouhh... have i meantioned today was veryyy suppperrr Random?? i mean.. when u planned to go with the plan u planned and suddenly everything side-tracked and u when u have the best people inur life with u.. for sure nothing will turn to something! :)
well.. the J&D were suppose to meet up and visit me at NBS and watch the sequence of something.. but we ended early soo yea things went downhill at tht moment.. den soon after.. we decided to head to Yishun Stadium. At first i tot tht its gonna be like dull and evertthing (i noe yall feel tht way too huh?) but when u have the Finest-comedy-sitcom-video makers u have nth to worry about.. i meann HELL YEAH!! it was damm fun.. from making nonsensical videos to Cheer leading to Bird-Duck-Quack-Meow.. hahha it was fun.. definitely a THING to remember.. ouh and also * remember the other day* moments.. hahah! I love J&D.. They're my Laughing GAs!!
Muss** 9.22pm
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Yesterday...Today
yesterday was SATURDAY! and ouhh mannn it was tiring.. its dance-after-dance day yesterday... woohhooo!! its fun i admit but too much of it will definitely bring my Energy level down.. at least for me of cos :)) ouh and HAPPY 17th FAIZNUR!..my buddy since pri sch.. :))
So today.. Sunday, I had dance class.. as usual.. i've decided to move on to the advance class cos i wanna expose myself to more challenges.. especially with PAT as my Instructor.. he's fierce rabakkk!! he's been pin-pointing me since last week man!... got me sweatin' nervous! LoLs all he wanted me to do was to be more " HardWorking"... ahhhaa!wadeva!
Well.. Prom Night is coming and i've yet to go shopping... all i need is 1) A pair of New Shoes...2) a new buttoned down long sleeve.. and maybe some other stuff like a belt or Skinny tie.. but i dunnoe.. i don wan to spent too much this year.. cos i still got nxt yr.. and nxt yr should be the year for me to "DRESS-TO-KILL" ahhhaa! :P...
tsktsktsk...Mussy mussy mussyyy... soo vain nowadays.. and ur all grown up now...
Muss** 11.53 pm
yesterday was SATURDAY! and ouhh mannn it was tiring.. its dance-after-dance day yesterday... woohhooo!! its fun i admit but too much of it will definitely bring my Energy level down.. at least for me of cos :)) ouh and HAPPY 17th FAIZNUR!..my buddy since pri sch.. :))
So today.. Sunday, I had dance class.. as usual.. i've decided to move on to the advance class cos i wanna expose myself to more challenges.. especially with PAT as my Instructor.. he's fierce rabakkk!! he's been pin-pointing me since last week man!... got me sweatin' nervous! LoLs all he wanted me to do was to be more " HardWorking"... ahhhaa!wadeva!
Well.. Prom Night is coming and i've yet to go shopping... all i need is 1) A pair of New Shoes...2) a new buttoned down long sleeve.. and maybe some other stuff like a belt or Skinny tie.. but i dunnoe.. i don wan to spent too much this year.. cos i still got nxt yr.. and nxt yr should be the year for me to "DRESS-TO-KILL" ahhhaa! :P...
tsktsktsk...Mussy mussy mussyyy... soo vain nowadays.. and ur all grown up now...
Muss** 11.53 pm
The time is coming...
WOW.. i nvr thought tht This Year... NBS is gonna be a Danceful year.. finally i've managed to show NBS My other Talent instead of Band..and i feel ouhh soo solitary! :) prom is coming soon and mann!! im freakinng out on wad to wear.. especially when we're doing a lil something for tht special nite! :p i have to look good and feel good as well.. haiz.. i need Rose right now to help me decide on wad to wear.. ahhhaaa!
I played Hotel 626 and its Freaking scarryyy!! it scared the Holy Shitts Outta me..and the game is only playable from 6pm to 6 am..like WTH?? thts no wonder the game is called 626 as in " 6-to6" hahaha!! for those who wanna try... www.hotel626.com for the ladies... if ur really strong hearted den play if not.. im warning u.. it scared the Puberty ouutt ya!..no offence but ya! :)) and the fact tht im gonna be alone for the next 2 days.. It has definitely taken its toll on mee..
OUHH SHIATTT-SUUUUU!!
OUHH SHIATTT-SUUUUU!!
Muss ** 10.32 am
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I'm Feeling Happy today.. :))
Im Cheerfull ... happy...Joyous and full of Good Vibes
TODAY!
Im Cheerfull ... happy...Joyous and full of Good Vibes
TODAY!
In fact.. This is the Perfect timing for me to dance and be happy doing it! YAY!!
I really Miss mY J&D... ouhh dear ouh dear... Absence has really made my heart grow fonder.
:))
MUS** 2.02pm
I really Miss mY J&D... ouhh dear ouh dear... Absence has really made my heart grow fonder.
:))
MUS** 2.02pm
Im feeling angryy inside... Furious.. Mad..Repulsive.. Tht's all im feeling since the Last 22hrs..
I cant wait for Sat.. Looking forward to Going out with Kinne and Que.. and Especially My Lyrical Class!
So yeah.. and also looking forward to an outing with J&D and Friends to shop for Prom.. it's not my night to remember cos im not graduating yet..soo.. why bother to " Dress to impress" ?? and i doubt my classmates will come this year...and im dying to meet them cos they're GREAT! ahha! :))
* why shud i feel jealous?? i dont want anything to do with it and i don give a Fcuk about it... *
Mus** 2.59am
I cant wait for Sat.. Looking forward to Going out with Kinne and Que.. and Especially My Lyrical Class!
So yeah.. and also looking forward to an outing with J&D and Friends to shop for Prom.. it's not my night to remember cos im not graduating yet..soo.. why bother to " Dress to impress" ?? and i doubt my classmates will come this year...and im dying to meet them cos they're GREAT! ahha! :))
* why shud i feel jealous?? i dont want anything to do with it and i don give a Fcuk about it... *
Mus** 2.59am
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
I'd never thought tht i missed playing Music this much... Watching my beloved juniors rehears and practise very hard reminded me of the Fun times i had with my Music Buddies.. Eg.. Kinne and Kamiyah..farah...BAKH... we strted off soo pathetic and eventually grow and become music lovers and Experts.. i feel honoured tht my Juniors Look up to me for guidence.. i feel tht i;ve already completed my Duty and left with Good memories.. and i feell fcuking proud wearing my Band T-shirt.. there! i've SAID IT!...hahha... soo yeah.. eventhough i will have another year next yr.. i'll definitely miss competing alongside with my fellow buddies... eventhough i've a passion for dance... Music has never left My heart..and it'll always be there...And yea.. MUSIC is DEFINITELY for LIFE.. Praise the Mozart and Beethovenn and BACH!
Muss** 12.05am
FRIENDSHIP is a FULL-TIME OCCUPATION.
FRIENSHIP is a full time occupation for me.. cos they just make my day.. Going out with J&D will turn my frown upside-down and rise up my "happyHour" meter.. FRIENDS.. wad can u do without themm...
Heres a lil saying i would like to use to conclude my Post
Muss**12.26am
FRIENSHIP is a full time occupation for me.. cos they just make my day.. Going out with J&D will turn my frown upside-down and rise up my "happyHour" meter.. FRIENDS.. wad can u do without themm...
Heres a lil saying i would like to use to conclude my Post
Find a way to take your internal clock and slow it down! You need to be patient.
Sometimes it feels like patience isn't a virtue as much as it's a method of torture! If you want to retain any sense of balance in your life, you are going to have to find a way to take your internal clock and slow it down! A great way to slow your roll would be to laugh a lot -- so get together with people who always have a funny take on things. Their quips and witty comments will help take your mind off your urge to rush around, and will help you stay hopeful for the future.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Cash Crisis...
I want to do alot of things which requires alot of $$... mannn!.. im cramped with cash all of a sudden.. there's soo many things for me to do.. yet i don have enff $$ to do so.. and now.. im not sure whter i;d be able to go for prom nite.. Sad Sad Sad.. but there're more things tht are important than tht.. soo.. Prom will still be on pause for me now..
Looking forward for the outing with J&D.. but one thing tht i worry... i don think i'll be going if
"...... ....... .......... " so yea..but i 'll have to consider about tht...
til then...
Mus** 2.15 Pm
I want to do alot of things which requires alot of $$... mannn!.. im cramped with cash all of a sudden.. there's soo many things for me to do.. yet i don have enff $$ to do so.. and now.. im not sure whter i;d be able to go for prom nite.. Sad Sad Sad.. but there're more things tht are important than tht.. soo.. Prom will still be on pause for me now..
Looking forward for the outing with J&D.. but one thing tht i worry... i don think i'll be going if
"...... ....... .......... " so yea..but i 'll have to consider about tht...
til then...
Mus** 2.15 Pm
Sunday, November 09, 2008
I went to dance class today.. and i must admit.. tht im getting much better every week.. LoLS.. but i must not boast about it..
Well.. to me.. hanging out with friends is indeed one of my " DE-Stress" remedies... Ever since they've graduated or moved on to the next level.. tht has indeed make my heart grow fonder for them...
Some of us in this world are not in the Perfect shape like we fantasized.. some too short.. too slow.. .. too stupid.. too lazy.. too dependat.. Too pampered..Too fat..... Too unperfect.. Friendless.. too arrongant.. ETC... and we all have ourselves to blame.. if only we have taken tht " OneStep" to change it all.. and tht step is to Open our minds and Be brave to do anything even if there's misturns.. I've learnt tht during my Dance today... The moment when ur Pissed about not getting it right..getting it right for just a moment and screw it again the next.. is painful.. but however... Goin thru the pain makes the result much more Benefitial and rewarding and " Worth-the Trouble".. so.. all we have to do is be brave.. and Try it.. and Don't care about our Weaknesses.. cos they wont do us any good but to just get in our way to victory.. do what u have to do..never let our Heart Overrule our Mind.. for the bad things.. like " i ccant do it cos im ....." we have our Goals in our mind.. our Desire for it is in our heart.. our heart is sensitive to everything.... tht is why when we fail we Complain!. and soon.. our goal will sidetrack.. So DOnt... Don't!.. Let our heart overrule for the right things.. like.. " i have to do this cos i wan to be better..."
an Advice from Mussy.. Tht made me, Et realise how Strong the Heart is if we allow it to overrule our Minds for the wrong reasons..
Muss** 10.53 Am.
Well.. to me.. hanging out with friends is indeed one of my " DE-Stress" remedies... Ever since they've graduated or moved on to the next level.. tht has indeed make my heart grow fonder for them...
Some of us in this world are not in the Perfect shape like we fantasized.. some too short.. too slow.. .. too stupid.. too lazy.. too dependat.. Too pampered..Too fat..... Too unperfect.. Friendless.. too arrongant.. ETC... and we all have ourselves to blame.. if only we have taken tht " OneStep" to change it all.. and tht step is to Open our minds and Be brave to do anything even if there's misturns.. I've learnt tht during my Dance today... The moment when ur Pissed about not getting it right..getting it right for just a moment and screw it again the next.. is painful.. but however... Goin thru the pain makes the result much more Benefitial and rewarding and " Worth-the Trouble".. so.. all we have to do is be brave.. and Try it.. and Don't care about our Weaknesses.. cos they wont do us any good but to just get in our way to victory.. do what u have to do..never let our Heart Overrule our Mind.. for the bad things.. like " i ccant do it cos im ....." we have our Goals in our mind.. our Desire for it is in our heart.. our heart is sensitive to everything.... tht is why when we fail we Complain!. and soon.. our goal will sidetrack.. So DOnt... Don't!.. Let our heart overrule for the right things.. like.. " i have to do this cos i wan to be better..."
an Advice from Mussy.. Tht made me, Et realise how Strong the Heart is if we allow it to overrule our Minds for the wrong reasons..
Muss** 10.53 Am.
Saturday, November 08, 2008
I feel that dancing has already made me confident..better.. be more comfortable to be open to people..be more lively and young..
My love for music has already grown... but yet to be improved..Music runs in my family's blood.. all thx to my late Grand.Papa... he passed down he talent and love for music to his children and then to us.. the next generation.. so yes.. but i want to used tht talent to imprve my Dance Technique..so thts wad im doing now...
After the two dance sessions with the J&D was great and yes! they were indeed amazing ...Love them! this has made me realise tht they make me feel important.. like they need me to lead them in the line to dance... but is it true?? am i really what i think i am to them?? i cant possibly confirm yet... but there's one thing tht im not veryy comfortable withh.. im using some of the routines i learnt from my dance class.. i don feel good teaching the J&D tht.. i feel like im copying everytin... Every dancer has his own style.. each individual's style mixed with other genre of dances make them unique and extremely good. i've yet to find my style of choreography... my own creation of Art and my very own technique.. but i cant seem to figure it out..
Perhaps soon.. or not anytime soon..maybe its right infront of me.. maybe its not even there..
So here i am.. still searching....
Muss** 10.45pm
My love for music has already grown... but yet to be improved..Music runs in my family's blood.. all thx to my late Grand.Papa... he passed down he talent and love for music to his children and then to us.. the next generation.. so yes.. but i want to used tht talent to imprve my Dance Technique..so thts wad im doing now...
After the two dance sessions with the J&D was great and yes! they were indeed amazing ...Love them! this has made me realise tht they make me feel important.. like they need me to lead them in the line to dance... but is it true?? am i really what i think i am to them?? i cant possibly confirm yet... but there's one thing tht im not veryy comfortable withh.. im using some of the routines i learnt from my dance class.. i don feel good teaching the J&D tht.. i feel like im copying everytin... Every dancer has his own style.. each individual's style mixed with other genre of dances make them unique and extremely good. i've yet to find my style of choreography... my own creation of Art and my very own technique.. but i cant seem to figure it out..
Perhaps soon.. or not anytime soon..maybe its right infront of me.. maybe its not even there..
So here i am.. still searching....
Muss** 10.45pm
Friday, November 07, 2008
Nightmares during the day... Daydreaming during the nite.
guess what?? for the last few days.. i've been sleeping during the day and staying up all nite all nite... so, i've been having nightmares when im sleeping.. ooooohhhhhhhh!! i dreamt tht i suffered and going to die of lukemia.. and i only have 2 years to live.. can u imagine if it were true?? i found out by some doctor tht i lave lukemia and only have 2 years to live..which means.. next year and th following.. den i wont dance..wont be a part of the J&D any longer.. itss just sad aint it??well.. its just a dream...
so.. during the nite.. i'll daydreamm.. its as if.. when the moon is up... then i'm up!.. daydream about me after i'd slim down and look ouhh soo handsome and J&D being soo proud of me.. and i'd dance better.. i've been getting those fantasy for 3 nites str8! and getting inspiration for new songs for me to teach the J&D... the feeling is just soo wonderfull.. i cant put them in words..even if i could.. it wont be as true as the way i felt it... OMG..
I sound soo Gay.. Btw.. Not all Male dancers are Gay!Im not! get tht in ur head... :))
Mus** 10.27pm.
guess what?? for the last few days.. i've been sleeping during the day and staying up all nite all nite... so, i've been having nightmares when im sleeping.. ooooohhhhhhhh!! i dreamt tht i suffered and going to die of lukemia.. and i only have 2 years to live.. can u imagine if it were true?? i found out by some doctor tht i lave lukemia and only have 2 years to live..which means.. next year and th following.. den i wont dance..wont be a part of the J&D any longer.. itss just sad aint it??well.. its just a dream...
so.. during the nite.. i'll daydreamm.. its as if.. when the moon is up... then i'm up!.. daydream about me after i'd slim down and look ouhh soo handsome and J&D being soo proud of me.. and i'd dance better.. i've been getting those fantasy for 3 nites str8! and getting inspiration for new songs for me to teach the J&D... the feeling is just soo wonderfull.. i cant put them in words..even if i could.. it wont be as true as the way i felt it... OMG..
I sound soo Gay.. Btw.. Not all Male dancers are Gay!Im not! get tht in ur head... :))
Mus** 10.27pm.
these otters are soo romantic.. if only w humans are more like them, life will indeed be much like a paradise..
Ouhh and in this vid..i think this cat has a love for Music.. hahahaa! u can see it when she plays the piano!.. cool huh?
The saddest....
i cant imagine myself in a situation where my Cat died in my arms.. This video is soo saddening tht i cried just by watching it.. but ever life comes death.. this reminded me of my rabbit- black and my hamster who died a few years ago..and i only realised it the next morning.. soo sadd.... To all pet lovers.. treasure every single moment with ur pets.. Here's the video..
Muss** 1.07Am
i cant imagine myself in a situation where my Cat died in my arms.. This video is soo saddening tht i cried just by watching it.. but ever life comes death.. this reminded me of my rabbit- black and my hamster who died a few years ago..and i only realised it the next morning.. soo sadd.... To all pet lovers.. treasure every single moment with ur pets.. Here's the video..
Muss** 1.07Am
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
What else and how should i Describe
Myself??
I pretty much said all about myself in my previous posts
So now? i have no idea.....
Myself??
I pretty much said all about myself in my previous posts
So now? i have no idea.....
umm.. im confused.. distracted.. and im always ANGRY nowadays.. be it with my frens in sch..Frens from Dance classs.. J&D.. and family.. i donnoe why really.. is this something tht i have to go thru? or it has already Written for me in my " LifeStory"..even the smallest of things i get very worked about.. impulsive and rebellious and competitive... i really donnoe why.. By ANGRY i don mean tht im ANGRY at those people.. but ANGRY with myself... angry with such small little things is kinda pathetic i noe.. but i simply cant get away from tht feeling at the moment..
for eg, when one of the J&D's dresses better than i do.. i'd get angry.. jealous... or maybe even when my dance frens are better than i am.. i'll get angry cos ... why cant i be like them?.. yeah.. those kind of things.. all im hoping for is all this to be over.. i don want it to go to an extent tht i'll break ties with all of them..
Such impulsive attitude..Fake smiles.. wads next? i might even kill someone at the veryy worst.
Muss***.... 12.55AM
for eg, when one of the J&D's dresses better than i do.. i'd get angry.. jealous... or maybe even when my dance frens are better than i am.. i'll get angry cos ... why cant i be like them?.. yeah.. those kind of things.. all im hoping for is all this to be over.. i don want it to go to an extent tht i'll break ties with all of them..
Such impulsive attitude..Fake smiles.. wads next? i might even kill someone at the veryy worst.
Muss***.... 12.55AM
Monday, November 03, 2008
WHY??
Why god?? why did u make this wall for me to climb??
even if u noe tht i wil NVR make it...still why??
Why god?? why did u make this wall for me to climb??
even if u noe tht i wil NVR make it...still why??
So the Drama. I cant even explain how this Drama .. Its Undescribable, unpredictable.unexplainable.... The thing i can sayy is.. I'm always the one at fault even if its not even mine... its me! i knew its me.. cos im too WEAK to LAZY to do anything.. but i cant justify tht.. but i have tht kind of feeling eversince..
I have something to confess.. Deep down.. im a coward... i have a weak heart... sometimes.. when i wanna Yell at people.. my heart simply sank soo deep tht i feel UnHuman..like aLOSER..which then make me not to yell at the someone...but why?? why am i soo weak??? maybe tht's why i've been letting people step-on my head all the time...i noe its wrong but wad am i suppose to do?? the most i could do is to just let the matter sink in.. pretend like it nvr happened...
I have something to confess.. Deep down.. im a coward... i have a weak heart... sometimes.. when i wanna Yell at people.. my heart simply sank soo deep tht i feel UnHuman..like aLOSER..which then make me not to yell at the someone...but why?? why am i soo weak??? maybe tht's why i've been letting people step-on my head all the time...i noe its wrong but wad am i suppose to do?? the most i could do is to just let the matter sink in.. pretend like it nvr happened...
but why cant i just stand up for myself..for ONCE! just this f*cking ONCE DAMN IT!!
Saturday, November 01, 2008
Here's a Video.. a Video Where i find my Inspiration.. LOLX!
Well.. Watch it and Understand it!.. ESPECIALLY the J&D!
U guyss better watch This.. HErdy in Particular.. :))
ENJOY!:))
