The Reminiscence of Such

Friday, September 26, 2008

Not in the Mood..

As of today.. im 3 days away to the science and maths papers..well.. im counting on Science
To get me through this year..
and we're exactly 4 days to Hari Raya and im not in the mood for raya
i dont even bother to spring clean my house unless my mummy tells me to
well.. all tht in my mind is the Exams
most prolly the first week or raya i'll be studyinng instead of going out..
i don wish to go to relatives house thou.. cos there've been "things" going on..
Something like a VENDETTA..
well.. tht totally depends on on mummy''s decision wther to go out or not...
one things for sure.. my MIND is in the EXAM MODE
this sums up to
IM NOT IN THE MOOD!...
mama miaa! aiiyeKarammba!!

ps: to all my muslim friends-- Selamat Hari raya Aidil(urs truely-fitri) dan Maaf Zahir dan Batin yo!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Anger Management!
Todayy was a ttotall nightmare.. My brother has been pushing me too hard
and too painful for me to even take it in anymore.. let's just say.. the little things i did for him and accomplished for him has proven to be in vain.. things like PRELIM results.. there's too many for me to sayy and i doubt that words can tell u how im feeling way-way-way-way deep inside...
sometimes.. im forgetting to Do this STUDIES for MYSELF! and not for anyone else.. but the thought of wanting to show him tht im a somebody has taken me farr away from what i wanted... and soom comes my torrents..blasting out everyything i think and felt like saying..and this lead to a huge quarell between the both of us.. and i cant believe that i could actually express my thoughts to something like THAT!..how long is he going to keep this up??sometimes i fear that i might loose it nd commit suicide..cos i;ve been wanting to do that for quite sometime..but of cos i hope not.. sometimes i wished i had another brother to talk to.. or a sis maybe..someone for me to talk to..
But now.. im all alone at home till the next day..depressed,frustrated,remorseful at the same time.. i wish i wasnt born like this..it has caused nothing but trouble.. and things would definitely be better when im around my frens and J&D..

I'M a spoiled Child and a horrible person.

Saturday, September 06, 2008

My Thoughtss...
There's soo many things going on lately and things are piling up reall badd
Things like home, myself and N levels
If only i was given at least 1 wish.. i would wish for things to to get better
for the sake of everyone.. SERIOUSLLYY
I SOME HOW THINK THAT IM BEING DESPERATE RATHER THAN MATURE
and i donnoe whether my friends have the same thought....
I FEEL LIKE IM A STRANGER AMONGST MY frIENDS AND SOME TIME AMONG THE J&Ds
N levels..Home..Family... If i hadnt repeated My N's
Maybe things wont be like NOW..
Haiiss... im in such TRAUMA.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Ouhh myyy.. English Paper 2 was veryy challenging.. however i did try my bestt to answerr all of those Questions properlyy.. Im hoping to aleast get an A2 for English this year.. but after wad i have gone through.. its kinda impossible.. but im not giving up just yet! a B3 would be goos enuff..Now im left with 3 weeks to Mug for my Sci and MAths.. MATHS!! im yearning to get a pass or B standard for Math.. i'll make full use of the break to brush up everything..yeah man!

All the best to all and especially to
MySELF!!MUSsY!!

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

SPittss..
Todayy.. i saw an old man spitting his saliva into a Garbage bin!! ouhhh myyyy!!

I was rather impress!! can u imagine.. an old man like him is muchh mucch more gracious than normal adults or even teenagerS??(if u guys spittlike nobody's business tht is)... people like him make such a greatt role-modal!! hahhahaha!!

I know.. this is a very weired weired Post..well.. better than nothing rite??

buhbyeess!!
XD