Anger Management!
Todayy was a ttotall nightmare.. My brother has been pushing me too hard
and too painful for me to even take it in anymore.. let's just say.. the little things i did for him and accomplished for him has proven to be in vain.. things like PRELIM results.. there's too many for me to sayy and i doubt that words can tell u how im feeling way-way-way-way deep inside...
sometimes.. im forgetting to Do this STUDIES for MYSELF! and not for anyone else.. but the thought of wanting to show him tht im a somebody has taken me farr away from what i wanted... and soom comes my torrents..blasting out everyything i think and felt like saying..and this lead to a huge quarell between the both of us.. and i cant believe that i could actually express my thoughts to something like THAT!..how long is he going to keep this up??sometimes i fear that i might loose it nd commit suicide..cos i;ve been wanting to do that for quite sometime..but of cos i hope not.. sometimes i wished i had another brother to talk to.. or a sis maybe..someone for me to talk to..
But now.. im all alone at home till the next day..depressed,frustrated,remorseful at the same time.. i wish i wasnt born like this..it has caused nothing but trouble.. and things would definitely be better when im around my frens and J&D..
I'M a spoiled Child and a horrible person.
Todayy was a ttotall nightmare.. My brother has been pushing me too hard
and too painful for me to even take it in anymore.. let's just say.. the little things i did for him and accomplished for him has proven to be in vain.. things like PRELIM results.. there's too many for me to sayy and i doubt that words can tell u how im feeling way-way-way-way deep inside...
sometimes.. im forgetting to Do this STUDIES for MYSELF! and not for anyone else.. but the thought of wanting to show him tht im a somebody has taken me farr away from what i wanted... and soom comes my torrents..blasting out everyything i think and felt like saying..and this lead to a huge quarell between the both of us.. and i cant believe that i could actually express my thoughts to something like THAT!..how long is he going to keep this up??sometimes i fear that i might loose it nd commit suicide..cos i;ve been wanting to do that for quite sometime..but of cos i hope not.. sometimes i wished i had another brother to talk to.. or a sis maybe..someone for me to talk to..
But now.. im all alone at home till the next day..depressed,frustrated,remorseful at the same time.. i wish i wasnt born like this..it has caused nothing but trouble.. and things would definitely be better when im around my frens and J&D..
I'M a spoiled Child and a horrible person.
