The Reminiscence of Such

ermm.. where to strt...
ouh.. ok..
dere was band todae.. ermm very sianz.. me not even in comm' members..
very disappointing actually.. donnoe why la... but it really hurts me a l0t..
im happy f0r my frens who bcame comm' members..
mostly everyone was cheerful and happy todae.. except for me of cos..
as i've said i was dissappointed.. lol.... but truely..
its very dissappointng for me.. firstly.. i commited alot for band.. for de past 2 yrs..
came for band every week.... mastering my trombone skills...
except for dis yr.. my attendance kinda rusty.. but not dat bad...
secondly.. i feel dat its unfair.. i've done alot.. trying to help de band
but in return.. i onli got a post.. dats is sect. leader.. which is hopeless..
very useless..i didnt thought of it as useless last time.. bcos.. i noe i can still get a higer post..
but den my hopes were gone jus like dat...i feel dat dere's nth left for me to do...
de reason i said dat was.. bcos i worked hard to get a higher post..and i noe dat i still got much todo..but now.. since everythg done.. and i don get any post.. i gt nothg else todo..MIGHT AS WELL JUS QUIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but last time i used to have interest in both BAND &MUSIC
but now.. i onli have one.. which is MUSIC...i LOVe band so much.. but now.. everythg chg..
but im totally in a difficult situation.. in donnoe wad to choose... to either quit.. or jus follow thru..or to jus lose faith...or trust my heart so it will somehow lead me thru de door..
i shud have followed mi instincts.. don obess with my sch band alot.. like.. be in de camp comm.. stayback plan.. and wadeva FUCKING SHIT...shud have nvr done dat
at least i don feel hurt much...
well..last yr b4 SYF..i sacked myself frm counsellor.. i don attend counsellor meetings.. camps wadever SHIt.. jus bcos to come for band.. i lose alot.. but i gain nth
DO DEY NOE ALL DIS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i regreted everythg i giv up for and worked for..(U ALL DON BELIEVE ASK DAWN).. i really wish dat all dis was a bad dream.. i don like...
LETS JUS SAY.. I REALLY LOST MY INTEREST IN BAND.....
i will come for pracs.. but i wont be as enthusiastic as i were b4..don wan to gothru de process again..

NO OFFENCE TO PPL READIN DIS POST.. I JUS WANNA LET U GUYS NOE WHY I WAS SO QUIET JS NOW..

mus a.k.a hates Band likes music
signin off